I made it through.

Yup. I made it. One week of Kindergarten down, many left to go, but I made it. I shed a few tears. Told you I would. I was fine leading up to the big day. Fine walking to the bus stop. Fine seeing her step up to the bus. Not so fine seeing the doors close and the bus drive away with my child. Cue tears welling up. Cue the realness hitting me.

Somehow I made it through the past four days without my first born. I gave attention to my littlest one, did household chores, and other stuff I can't even recall anymore. Thanks for the prayers and phone calls. I did great!

Sadie, she did great too :)

all excitement. she cant wait.

hanging at the bus stop with her buddies. 

waving bye to daddy.

getting on the bus for the first time.

she did it. she actually got on...and left me.

getting off the bus to come home. it was a quick three hours.

Sadie was excited and loved her first three days of school. Day four? Not so much. She did cry and held onto my leg, not wanting to get on the bus. I peeled her off and forced her on. It was hard. All the other moms at the bus stop staring at us. The bus driver waiting on us and trying to get Sadie on the bus. Nothing like a little pressure as I am trying to soothe and rush my kid on the bus. She's scared. I can't do much but reassure her it's okay and push her onto the bus steps. OK, I didn't push her, but I did pick her up and place her inside the bus. It's tough seeing her leave while she is crying and not knowing what is going on at school until I pick her up. Did she cry all day? Did anyone help her? Was she scared? Did she get over it quickly? Did she feel safe?
She needs to cope with the newness of school and leaving home for a little each day. Hopefully she is growing and learning how to handle this Kindergarten thing on her own. On her own? At 5? This seems hard. Apparently preschool didn't' help too much in the department of leaving mom for awhile.  Kindergarten and the bus are a whole different ballgame then being dropped off at Preschool, which is at your church, that you have known forever and feel comfortable at. Here's to a nice four day weekend, then we will see how next week goes. Fingers crossed.

Good luck Sadie! I know you'll do great. You are my social butterfly who can't stop talking, playing, imagining, and learning. You love teachers and doing what is expected of you. You are the perfect student. You are my kid and you are awesome!